We finally had convinced Kayla’s dad to let her sleep at my house. Her mom was great, but her dad was a dick.

So he finally agreed to it, and she came over.

We had our “beds” made up on the floor of the living room. I dont remember any details (how i wish i could remember something)

around midnight, i remember telling her we should go up to Dustin’s house, to see him and Randy.

I thought she and randy could get to know each other and it would mean someone could bear witness to Dustin actually liking me, since he always ignored me at school.

Well, dustin took me to his bedroom and, stop me if you’ve heard this story, KIND OF took my virginity.

And Kayla walked in. She said “i think we should probably go”.

She was right. It was late. We had to get back before my dad got up for work.

It was dark, she had no idea what was happening.

So we emerged from the bedroom, said goodbye, and walked back to my house. The kitchen lights were on. And i panicked. My dad was already awake. We coudlnt just sneak back into the house, you know?

We went in, intending to tell him we had been…. i dont know stargazing?

He told us he and mom had heard us leave. They’d been awake the whole time.

We went to my mom’s room and i begged, begged, begged her not to tell kayla’s father what had happened. 

I got punished. Grounded and such, i’m sure.

kayla eventually told her mother, of her own volition but didn’t get in trouble.

And now i wonder if she’s laughing at me, or shaking her head in disgust, or what.

I wonder if, when you die, you find out all the secrets. Does she know what happened with Dustin?

Dustin was such a cocksucker.

Does she know, though?